I really wanted to do hourly comic day today, but I’m tired as hell, everything hurts and my kid has been in A Mood, so all i actually have to show for today is a squiggly stag beetle doodle.

It’s been a little while since I did any crochet, but I am really loving this pretty yarn and super simple wrap pattern.

(picture shows the beginnings of a pink and green triangle shaped wrap) ๐Ÿงถ

Just done my… fifth, i think, covid test. God I’m ready for this to be over.

I live with someone who’s immunocompromised, so i have to be super careful, but god, sticking that swab down my throat doesn’t get any more fun.

lockdown toddler parent blues

amount of sleep i got last night: absolutely none

amount of energy my toddler has this morning: all of it

number of times i have tried and failed to get them to put on some pants: six

number of times i have decided fuck it, it’s lockdown, who am i to tell them they have to wear pants in the privacy of their own home: one

how done am i with lockdown: 900%

thoughts on Inside (the game) and its ending, Very Much Spoilers

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No, actually, I sort of loved the ending? I’m not sure what happened to the Giant Weird Flesh Blob at the end - was it dead, was it unconscious, was it just resting by the side of the lake for a while to reflect on its freedom? - but it seemed to be at peace, certainly far more so than it had been when it was in a tank being stared at all day. And crashing through the facility breaking everything and watching the people run from me or get crushed underfoot was so fucking satisfying. Fuck you, creepy dystopian overlords.

Honestly it was just… really a good game, generally, I liked how most of the puzzles were solvable just by fucking around and trying things out (not gonna lie, I looked up a walkthrough once or twice, but I didn’t get stuck much). I really loved the boy’s body language, how it changed when he felt safe vs when he was wary and sneaking through somewhere afraid of getting caught; the creators did so much with a small, simple sprite.

… I liked how the title seemed to change to mean different things as I went through the game, too. At first I thought the boy was just trying to get “inside” to safety away from the dogs and the men hunting him down; then I thought, oh, he’s trying to get Inside the facility to do something, break someone out of there or shut it down or something, and then finally I was like, ohhh, he needed to get Inside the tank and the weird limb blob creature, now I get it.

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well, I finished Inside, and… uh… that… sure was an ending! ๐ŸŽฎ๐Ÿ•น๏ธ

I started playing Inside yesterday, approximately a million years after everyone else, and it is… not what I was expecting. I’m not sure what I was expecting, actually, but it wasn’t “dystopian puzzle platformer”.

It’s really good, tho. ๐ŸŽฎ๐Ÿ•น๏ธ

lockdown and language learning

I started learning Swedish on duolingo way back at the beginning of lockdown the first, and i now have a 228 day streak

It’d be nice to say “and now I’m fluent in Swedish! Something positive came out of this shitty past ten months!” but, sadly i am so fucking far from fluent. The most i can say is that i mostly understand how some of its basic grammar works. And I can say “There are several moose in the bathroom” now, so i got that going for me, which is nice.

moved my personal domain to sunbeam.cafe, named after two things i really miss in this freezing lockdown winter

vague introspection

I really want to start blogging more, especially like… long form blogging more so than a twitter replacement. But I always feel like, what am i going to say that’s interesting to anyone? Like, especially now in the weird corona times, my life is very small, really. I’m in a small town with my small child, mostly at home all day except when we go to the park. I read books and play videogames (and sometimes make tiny ones), when I have the mental energy, and i often want to infodump about them, honestly, so there’s that. But it’s not like I’m exactly having wild adventures.

I guess i could just report whatever adorable shit my kid’s been doing that day. It’s generally pretty adorable.

Or try not to worry if anyone ever reads, and just talk. Micro.blog seems good for that.

saw some cool fungus today

Look at this good good girl

A tabby and white cat curled up on a cushion

a friend i met today

a bumblebee on a pink flower

why are toddlers so goddamn cute when they’re not being chaos monsters

wow i miss my kid super bad this weekend

like, every weekend they go to the co-parents’ house, this is not new, but idk i just really miss them right now

yesterday they hugged me and said “i wuv you very much” and my heart melted into a puddle.

I’m still figuring out the culture of micro.blog. Like… Is it okay to just reply to a post if I like it or have something to say? I don’t want to be the annoying asshole crashing into people’s mentions, but I do want to interact.

my daisy is open! love my tiny made-out-of-boxes garden ๐ŸŒฑ

a large white daisy growing in a pot in my yard

that means i am getting gay married in TWO MONTHS

feels surreal saying that

so after what feels like an eternity of delays with visas and red tape and pandemics my fiance is finally actually coming home from the us in two weeks

a longer post

Alright, let’s try a longer post and see how those work/look?

… I always feel so selfconscious when I’m trying to start a new account or new site or whatever, which doesn’t make any fucking sense because… nobody’s reading! This should be the time I feel least selfconscious! but yeah, I don’t know, something about not feeling ~established here makes me feel like I should be trying extra super hard to be entertaining. but this certainly isn’t going to entertain anyone.

Teeny tiny baby tomatoes ๐ŸŒฑ

Some very small green tomatoes growing on a tomato plant

kid: put food in the oven… to make it nice and clean

me: uh

some mushrooms i saw yesterday (and bonus toddler)

small brown mushrooms growing in the grass, a toddler is crouching down in the background

kid didn’t go to sleep until 1am last night, because they apparently evolved past the need for sleep

sadly, i have not, so I’m a zombie today

me: gamification doesn’t really work for me

also me: ooooh i got four pins on this site already?? that’s so cool :